It's Been Awhile

it's been a while
Since i could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since i first saw you
It's been a while
Since i could stand
On my own two feet again
And it's been a while
Since i could call you

And everything i can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that i've rendered
Have stretched myself beyond my means

It's been a while
Since i could say
That i wasn't addicted
It's been a while
Since i could say
I loved myself as well and...
It's been a while
Since i've gone and fucked things up
Just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you

And everything i can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
Consequences that i've rendered
Gone and fucked things up again... again

Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
But then i go an fuck things up again

It's been a while
Since i could...
Look at myself straight
It's been a while
Since i said i'm sorry
It's been a while
Since i've seen the way
The candles light your face
It's been a while
But i can still
Remember just the way you taste

Everything i can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
To me... i know this pain
I can not blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me

It's been a while
Since i could...
Hold my head up high
It's been a while
Since i said i'm sorry