Alone in December

you always amaze me
but thats the past
i kept silent and it rained for days
my insides were drenched
but i guess thats the part of growing up
i never wanted to learn
and i grew into the man
that you never knew
but i wouldn't be this way
if it wasn't for you
a hundred thank you's
if this is love
fairy tails never came true
judies are black in full bloom
and i died in the womb
take it back, all thats gone
it's all still there like you left it
december stayed the same
nothing ever changed but you
every dream covered in dents
love can't fly tonight
couples will rest, i'll be sleepless
so cry yourself to sleep
this is about broken hearts
this is about me
bending again for nothing
i'd run to you but pain awaits
i'm coming home
but i'll be late
no deeper than imagination can be
sight with nothing to see
whats faith if i can't believe
it's everything
a cure, but i make it a disease
god take me because i hate me