French mistake

in all this time I wait for you
I staple down my heart
won't somebody please undo this dream
I'll believe you when the lights come on
and the army starts to fight the incoming
soon you'll be much easier to capture
so calm down
any desparate thoughts I have left in me
an acceptance missed by just a bit of laziness
it's only the unspeakable fear
somethings gone
I don't know how long it's been since it seemed this way