1000 Julys

planning my attack just before you come back around
maybe i'm wrong but i don't know how to back down
i never fit in you know i don't belong
but you know that i don't care when you and me are strong
cause i'm a vampire y'all
we toast the blood of our enemies
you're still scaring me no still scaring me no
and we don't fit in
wonder what it's like when you're living with someone like me
i'm a freak and i'm nervous when it's easy
feral days and i'm sex crazed
i put it in with my animal ways
that's the sign i was born to be living in
i ran around and gave the finger to the ritalin
you know you calm me down and i can't say why
you say goodbye and burn my eyes
a thousand july's
i hope you find
i'd give you the words but no words come to mind
but you turn me so cold so i tell you lies
when you let me in it's like a thousand julys
when you left i felt the drop like a boom
wintertime all alone in your bedroom
i don't blame you and i know i'm not your friend
how we live young american
i guess i've always known i'd be on my own
i'd be on my own and i don't know why i don't know why
a thousand julys
i know you'll find
i'd say the words but no words come to mind
but you let me in and i don't know why
but when you come it's like a thousand julys
a thousand julys
that's what you are
i'd tell you to come back now but we've gone too far
and we've burned it out now
i don't even try
but i feel you gone
i lost a thousand julys